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elusivekIt's been a while, yes. Sorry.
Life's been ok, I guess. Nothing too exciting. Nothing too depressing. Just nothing to talk about.
And I don't want to force any topics, so I dunno.
I had been playing awhile on that new handheld gaming device i wrote about the other time. It's history repeating itself again. I play on something like day-in-day-out for a couple of days, then one day just can't see another minute of it again LOL. Give it some time, I'll want to play again.
It's gonna be pretty festive in the next few days, as it's the Chinese New Year. I don't care if people say say "It's more politically correct to say the Lunar New Year." If political correctness is the target, then it's the Farmer's Calendar New Year (it is called the 農曆 in Chinese).
I've got work all sorted out, so I'm more sitting around waiting to get off work (haha).
I took tomorrow (Friday) off so I have a long weekend and I could go one more day to the pottery studio to spend some quality time alone.
I've been avoiding home. Going to work, going to the library, going for classes, going for dinners. It's making my social life look more busy, but it's been tiring me out too.
I've had thoughts of moving out, getting my own place, but as I've always said, I earn enough to live well, but I don't earn enough to afford my own place. Basically, I'm waiting for the next round of Government Housing applications then I'm going to apply for that. But at the same time, why should I spend more money? And guess what with the me doing my own laundry, they are now starting to like "not finish their laundry." Like, they do their laundry, then don't finish it up, put it in the dryer or hang the clothes to dry. But then I have to use the washing machine, but they hadn't put their load away. Either I will have to just wait it out until they do it, or, I might as well do it so that I can do my laundry. So far happened twice, and OK, I'll be the bigger person and do it for them. But trust me, it will soon turn into "expectations that I do it" and then "why are you not doing it," and then it's gonna be another big fight again.
As mentioned, it's way beyond sibling rivalry. I don't mind my Sis so much. But the preferential treatment for my Sis really gets to me.
Oh now Mom has been really polite and careful. Sometimes they don't want to cook dinner and ask me to order out, before the big fight, it was like a "because they asked, I have to do it and pay for everyone." Now they are all "we'll pay you back." And I keep telling them, it's not the money. It's the expectation that I am the one who always does it automatically.
Even for the Chinese New Year family lunch. I've already booked a place. I told them the price. I know they'd find it a little too expensive. But, the usual parameters required are:
- a place we don't normally go to (because if we go to a familiar place, the staff will all be asking for Lai See/Hongbao)
- a buffet place, preferably
So, I've booked a place, told them that I've booked it, and that if they think it's too expensive or too far away, they can go right ahead and look up what they want instead.
Why should I be the one to spend time researching and then get banned for all suggestions that actually do fit their required parameters? If it were me I don't really want to have this lunch anyway.
Work-wise, I have a business trip coming up in March. Some stuff happened, so I have to make this trip. It's going to make me lose my 100% attendance in Mandarin class, but it's OK. Whatever.
Then it's my South Korea trip for the run in Geongju in April. Then in May I'm reviving my previous year's travel plan to see the Wisteria in bloom in Japan. Well, that's gonna push Mom into "you're always traveling, I need to give a chance to your Sis to travel." You know what, whatever. I should learn not to care anymore.
Life's been ok, I guess. Nothing too exciting. Nothing too depressing. Just nothing to talk about.
And I don't want to force any topics, so I dunno.
I had been playing awhile on that new handheld gaming device i wrote about the other time. It's history repeating itself again. I play on something like day-in-day-out for a couple of days, then one day just can't see another minute of it again LOL. Give it some time, I'll want to play again.
It's gonna be pretty festive in the next few days, as it's the Chinese New Year. I don't care if people say say "It's more politically correct to say the Lunar New Year." If political correctness is the target, then it's the Farmer's Calendar New Year (it is called the 農曆 in Chinese).
I've got work all sorted out, so I'm more sitting around waiting to get off work (haha).
I took tomorrow (Friday) off so I have a long weekend and I could go one more day to the pottery studio to spend some quality time alone.
I've been avoiding home. Going to work, going to the library, going for classes, going for dinners. It's making my social life look more busy, but it's been tiring me out too.
I've had thoughts of moving out, getting my own place, but as I've always said, I earn enough to live well, but I don't earn enough to afford my own place. Basically, I'm waiting for the next round of Government Housing applications then I'm going to apply for that. But at the same time, why should I spend more money? And guess what with the me doing my own laundry, they are now starting to like "not finish their laundry." Like, they do their laundry, then don't finish it up, put it in the dryer or hang the clothes to dry. But then I have to use the washing machine, but they hadn't put their load away. Either I will have to just wait it out until they do it, or, I might as well do it so that I can do my laundry. So far happened twice, and OK, I'll be the bigger person and do it for them. But trust me, it will soon turn into "expectations that I do it" and then "why are you not doing it," and then it's gonna be another big fight again.
As mentioned, it's way beyond sibling rivalry. I don't mind my Sis so much. But the preferential treatment for my Sis really gets to me.
Oh now Mom has been really polite and careful. Sometimes they don't want to cook dinner and ask me to order out, before the big fight, it was like a "because they asked, I have to do it and pay for everyone." Now they are all "we'll pay you back." And I keep telling them, it's not the money. It's the expectation that I am the one who always does it automatically.
Even for the Chinese New Year family lunch. I've already booked a place. I told them the price. I know they'd find it a little too expensive. But, the usual parameters required are:
- a place we don't normally go to (because if we go to a familiar place, the staff will all be asking for Lai See/Hongbao)
- a buffet place, preferably
So, I've booked a place, told them that I've booked it, and that if they think it's too expensive or too far away, they can go right ahead and look up what they want instead.
Why should I be the one to spend time researching and then get banned for all suggestions that actually do fit their required parameters? If it were me I don't really want to have this lunch anyway.
Work-wise, I have a business trip coming up in March. Some stuff happened, so I have to make this trip. It's going to make me lose my 100% attendance in Mandarin class, but it's OK. Whatever.
Then it's my South Korea trip for the run in Geongju in April. Then in May I'm reviving my previous year's travel plan to see the Wisteria in bloom in Japan. Well, that's gonna push Mom into "you're always traveling, I need to give a chance to your Sis to travel." You know what, whatever. I should learn not to care anymore.
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Date: 2026-02-13 08:08 (UTC)After a while, my aunt passed away, this aunt was my godmother. I had told mom and cousin (aunt’s son) (brother of this cousin that bought grandma’s place) that I would be very interested in buying her place, since all her sons had their own places by then. They hemmed and hawed saying best not to sell to family that if something goes wrong it’ll be fights with the family. (I’ll bet it’s either more that if they sell it out of family they can sell for a higher price, or my Mom made cousin not sell me the place).
Since then, I’ve always made small comments about getting a place and looking at listings. Mom would always bite back with “in THAT area?” “Oh so small?” And the famous “you can ask your friends for help”. (Which she now hates when I use it to counter her requests).
At one point in time, she had the cheek to say if I ever move out, she expects me to house my Sis as well. So. Well. I’m not going to. Very juvenile way of thinking but it’s one that seems to be working well as long as the equilibrium is kept.
I’ve now more or less adopted a I’m just a tenant in this place. I have my own room, I pay “rent”, (mom likes to say she won’t ask for rent but “there are expenses around the place”), I mostly buy my own food, do my own laundry, whenever I get coupons or gifts from my workplace it all goes to contribute into the home. When they ask for certain groceries or home items I buy and don’t ask for any money back. So now they can’t complain that I’m not doing anything for the home and I also do not engage or start any fights.
Whereas I know for a fact my Sis isn’t paying nor contributing for anything. And she doesn’t get flack for any of that.